I am afraid of reduction. After a lifetime’s independence- yes, selfish independence- I am terrified of being reduced to childhood once more, to helplessness, to seas of confusion from which the cruel lucid intervals poke up like rock shoals. I don’t want to sit in my chair and be fed, much less do I want to be handed over to medical professionals.

The dead do not harm us, only the alive.

Wherever you look there is so much loss and folly to contemplate.

I’ve grieved enough for his life cut short and for mine for running on for so long with so little in it. It’s weakness now, but I suppose I am crying out of a general sense of loss. Maybe I am mourning for the human condition.